Nothing. Everything to me for so long, has felt like nothing.
I want to walk with my head held high, confident in who I am. I've never felt confortable in my own skin, and I want to so bad. I can only be myself when I am comfortable, and confident in just being alive.
It's utterly pathetic that I act like a shy timid worm. I am not a worm, I'm me and that's million times more then just that. But no matter how outgoing I try to be, I always beat myself up afterwards for something stupid I may have said, or a look I may have gotten. And I never end up trying to hard to be myself again, I get scared so easily and giveup even easier.
If only I could show people my true self, my strength, my courage, and my charm.
Sounds a bit selfcentered, but everyone has so much more to themselves than they show. And I just wish that someday all of us can accept all that we are and see how amazing certain parts and sides of us are, and admit that each of us all as individual are gosh darn awesome!
To the point, where no look or judgment from anyone can make us back down and hide, but to continue to be ourselves for the rest of our lives.
Some may not have this problem, but I know I do. And I don't want it to be for any longer. Amen.
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