Eager for Something

Being restless is one of the few things I find quite difficult dealing with.

Is it because I haven't yet experienced my invisioned eventful and adventurous life? Most likely.
I’ve always felt I had to do something, something big, exciting, inspiring, challenging and revolutionary.

Out of all the things I’ve tried to fill this desire, none have yet to feed the hunger. I wish it were simple to solve, that an idea would pop in my head, and that would be it! My life would have it's purpose and never again will I come to ask myself "what am I doing?".

I am a hard worker, when I’m motivated towards whatever task I have at hand, something I know is bigger than me and will make a positive impact. You could say, “There are a lot of things that would fit that description”, ah yes that is true. But it wouldn’t be “it”, you see I’m not simply looking for ‘anything’ to do; I’m looking for ‘the thing’ to do, and that is a lot easier said than done.

I don’t like bothering with other things that are not “it”, because doing that is just going to make me go through certain situations, and do a lot of things that will end up taking me no where closer to my goal, places I’m trying to get to, and where my life is exposed to be headed. So I’m at a stand still, and I’ve been in it a lot longer than I would ever like to. And I don’t know how much longer I can take it, but when that time comes when I absolutely have to do something, the thing I’ve been looking for better come running and show its face.