Bad Days

For the last couple days I haven't been having the best of times. Mainly for the reason of all the mess and junk I've been having to deal and work through to obtain something I have a longing for.

At this time in my life there are only a few things I really really want. Main thing is; to have time alone, to recollect myself, my thoughts and find that state of peace. Second is being able to get out and go to find that solitude.

Everything else I want revolves around that. Which are things like, having a license, maybe a phone, and having my own room. Today I'm greatly frustrated and I feel as though everone's going out of their way to make it so I can't have time to myself!
Okay, let's take a deep breath. I'll try not get too narror minded here. There are bigger and more important things out there than my little stresses in daily life.

I know out of all the problems in the world and in peoples lives; mine are not even close to being the largest. So there is no excuse for me to waste my day being bitter and depressed.
Though sometimes I know it's tough to see that, and all you want to do is feel free to be mad, sad, pissed and have a tantrum to wallow in self pity. Don't deny it, we've all had our "it's all about me" days.

We all know it's terribly annoying and fist clenching when someone around us has their their head up their ass, only looking at how they feel and what they want. With absolutely no consideration for others around them.
That's what we're like when we choose to focus on our wants, our needs and what's not working out for us. It blinds us to what's truly important and causes us to not only get a pissy attitude but impacts our surroundings and others in a negitive way.
The only one that can stop yourself from thinking and acting a certain way is you, and yes, you can do what's right. Don't start lying and making that excuse for yourself that you can't do this and you can't do that. If it involves you, yes you can! You have a free will and you are the only that can control what you do and how you choose to act like with it.

Today, I choose not to be an ass.