Attitude

Lol, now normally I would never put a "lol" in one of my blogs, but this truly calls for one.

My last couple of post are full of attitude~
Which I think is quite hilarious, because to me, attitude feels a bit off from my typical self. I think the only one I do it to most; would be my mom (like most). Even when I do, I regret it not too long after.

I'm simply not the type to give a bad attitude to others on a daily bases or often enough to feel comfortable doing it. Don't think I'm saying I'm an angel and never get in a bad mood and act out towards others.
I admit. On occasions, I have given attitude to those close to me; like family members and loved ones to the point where it was uncalled for. I am indeed human.

Though when it comes to those I don't really know, and they happen cause me stress, frustration. Acting towards me with crude, mean actions, throwing whatever hurtful words my way; I'd probably (and have) start(ed) crying before I'd ever stick up for myself to say anything back, or give "attitude".

I'm not too sure why, it should be instinct to defend yourself when you feel endangered by another. But maybe that's the answer right there. Perhaps it is percisely because I do not feel endangered by others words of objection, bashing and disapproval. So I do not act, I stay silent and let them say what they please. Go ahead, hurt my feelings, it will not kill me. It'll only make me stronger.

It is better that the idiots that cannot control their emotions well enough to know they shouldn't act out and say such hurtful things to others, to lash out on me rather than others. Others that are unstable themselves. We'd make absolutely no progress, if we were to try and hurt the person that is trying to hurt us, it'll simply create an unending cycle with no resolve.

Don't get me wrong, just because I will not stand up for myself (in most cases) that doesn't mean I do not know how to. Nor does it mean I won't, if I'm pushed too far or if it's on behalf of someone else that is getting bullied by another, you can bet your life on the fact that I will stand up, take a stand for what needs to stop and who needs defending.

I have yet to experience a serious enough situation to flex and exercise my defencive and fighting capabilities, but maybe that's a good thing. Whichever it is, I am capable and I'll make sure of that.

Life View

What does it mean to be alive? What is the actually definition, is it simply having the capability to breathe? You cannot tell me that is all. There's more, so much more.
 

I don't need to prove there's more to us than just having fuctioning bodies. It's such a strong feeling in all of us, that there has to be something more to living than just being here. Life is far from pointless.

Seeing how others treat themselves, and others. Believing themselves to be of no worth or value. Constantly putting themselves down, thinking they don't have the knowledge, skills, and whatever else they believe is needed to be considered "worth something".

It's sad, it is. Because each and everyone of us is different, has something to provide this life, this world with something new and inspiring.

Believing you can't do or be something causes you to act as such, in which you only become and act exactly as a worthless life. You treat yourself and life in general according on how you see it.
Please change your way of thinking if you are living this life as anything other than what it is, and life is a blessing.

Do You Live in the Truth? Or the Lie?

Nights are usually when I have all the time in the world to think endlessly for as long as I can stay up. Which is why this night I am feeling the need to write, write as much as I can to at least try and organize my thoughts, and feelings.

Though they don't normally end up making a lot sense, since they are my deep thoughts and feelings that have been so deeply covered, that when brought to the surface it's tough to distinguish what exactly I'm facing being the first time seeing them in the light.

Words are hard to come by to explain, these emotions and thoughts are foreign and nothing I've come across so far.
Soon they'll be acknowledged by myself, and known as a part of me. BUT if they are deemed unworthy and not who I want to make apart of me. They are cast out with time, effort and taken away by God. He takes away the dark, negitive, unclean and sinful thoughts and emotions that I can no longer push down and coupe with.

I want peace, love, forgiveness, understanding, wisdom, grace, mercy, a long life, happiness, joy, confidence, etc. Anything of the opposite, I want nothing of it.
Oh I know it's there, I know it's going to try it's hardest to become me. To make me believe it's apart of me and there's no getting ride of it.

But I will not let the lies of the enemy break me. Satan's darkness has no power in my life, for I am the Lord's. God has made me to do great things, to have a life of joy, happiness, a long and prosprous life. I have accepted the truth and not the lie.

My Next Turn

I believe now is the time that my life takes on a new form,
something I have yet to understand or imagine is making it's way into my life script.

I cannot say I'm prepared metally and emotionaly yet, but I do know I'm not alone and I will make it through stronger, wiser and more prosperous.

What I need now is prayer, support and acceptance. This could very well impact not only my life, but all of those connected to me. With every ounce of life I have, I will pray to make this change a blessing to us and open our eyes to something more than ourselves.

Help us to become more united and understanding of one another.
No more rejection, uncertainty and judgment. I will know and find those who truly love and are there for me. I will not fear or be broken, for the Lord is my guidence, strength, protector, comforter and provider for all my needs.

I may be young, but I know more of what I am capable of than you. So trust me when I say I can do this and everything will work out. Because I will not allow any to bash my sprirt, if you feel that is your duty and responsibility to bring me down. I will cast you out of my life, I do not need any such darkness looming over my future and decisions. Negitive and damning words are not allowed here.

If you wish to be of true help, be glad, accepting, loving and of good faith. Because it is in the Lord's hands, and the best you can do is to accept that and live on believing and speaking only words of good things to come.

I hope you all accept not only me but the Lord, because without him you can do no good in my life. I will hold to the Lord with everything I am, be diligent forever seeking after his word, guidence and heart.

Go ahead and deny me if this change in my life is too much for you to bare and you want no part in it. Because even without you I am not alone.

Way of Life

There are those who run towards death, living day to day.
Those that follow the motto's of "YOLO" and live as if there is no tomorrow, using their body to it's breaking point, setting themselves up so they cannot live a long or healthy life.
Going along with whatever rash, reckless or irresponsible idea they themselves or others can muster up to keep the "party" going until they feel they've dug themselves deep enough to feel they've accomplished everything they could in one day.

Yet they never face their true turmoil's and unresolved situations and relationships in their lives. Like one would actually do if they would die tomorrow. So in short, they are running towards death, avoiding facing the things that would actually make themselves and their lives meaningful. "YOLO" has because an excuse to those that don't want to face life and move forward.

Then there are those that aspire to live to the best of their abilities.
Setting themselves up for success, every dream they've ever dreamt or idea they felt would serve enough purpose to see through, they accomplish it.
They are patient. If their goal means enough to them they will see it threw whether it takes 3 to 10 years to see it become what they've always hoped.
They make and work for what they have, and are not afraid to give it their all. Because they want to make their life count.

Last but not least there are those of us that live simply because they are alive.
In my opinion is the very example of the living dead. The worst out of the two, these people have no will or desire.
Do not become their own person, or try to achieve and reach for great things. They don't have any significant opinions, thoughts or beliefs to live their life as any individual would.
It's like they've lost or have never known the beauty of life. There is no flame in their eyes, only that of a routine of daily rituals of no great importance or meaning, and they dont bother to think why they do what they do.

I cannot think of another life style, they all seem to fall under one of the three, or perhaps a type of combination.
But now I believe it is the time to ask yourself this;
which life have you chosen?

The End.

Though life will continue after today, tomorrow and the next. If it were all to end, these are my last statements I'd like to leave everyone with;
I love you, and I am sorry. I could have done so much more. My main regret is not loving enough and focusing on myself more than others. I didn't live up to what I knew and know I am capable of, and didn't encourage you/everyone half as much as I should have. To help you realize, that you are utterly amazing and I have always wanted to express that to the point you'd actually understand. You will never be worthless or unneeded. Because you are unlike any other, you are your own. That in itself is everything, anything and incredible. My heart will always go out for you, whether I know your life story or not, you are like me. Human, imperfect and just trying to be accepted, find a place you feel you belong and loved. So live, and live strong. For you are the one and only you, but you are and will never be alone

We Were Created

Do our hearts really go out to others as much as they should?
How often do we have a thought purely for the best interest of others?

Would you hold out a hand for one that is struggling in life, emotions, physical health or mental stability?
To what extent is too much for you to go out of your way for another life?

I can't say I've always been thoughtful and gone out of my way for others. But I can say it happens more often than not.
Holding doors open, treating others,  compliments, going out of your way to let someone know they are noticed and taking that extra time that you could've been sleeping to listen to someone's troubles, worries or thoughts.

If anything I've been observing the fact that part of why the generations have been falling like they have, is because of the individuals idea that it is everyone for themselves. There is no out reached hands of guidance from prior generations, I feel as though they keep to themselves without descripted explanation as to why not and to do something.

If we all really cared, for anything other than our selves. Our entire way of life would of progressed much more effectively.

We need to care about others, and that will have such an unimaginable positive effect, that at this time it's hard to even imagine.

Dedicaton

I no longer want to live like others, just to feel my ways are justified and acceptable to the eyes of others.
I want to choose a path that'd come to surprise myself.

Let me help you understand what I have in mind.
For three years I want to purify my life and body. No alcohol, no cigarettes, no drugs of any kind, "natural" or not. Eat and drink to the best of my ability, as well as train my body to become strong and flexible. And most of all no sexual actions or contact with anyone or anything. I want to dedicate myself to the Lord, live a life of righteousness. Basically going into a form of nunnery.

I want to see something different in this world, and I can't simply sit back and wait for someone else to do it. If no one else, why not myself to take such a step in an unpredictable direction?

I want to see this threw, so on New Years day that's when it will commence. To make sure I stick to this path, I will get a tattoo of a black inch thick line around my arm to show the beginning of the first year, with every successful year that passes; a new line will come with it. With the last tattoo on the opposite arm as the other two.

If you are questioning why three years, why the tattoos or why to everything about this idea in general. I will answer with this; God, faith, prayer, the love and words of the Bible has been the only significant thing in my life. The only thing I know I will want to keep forever and base my life off of.
Three years because I feel that is the perfect amount of time to not be overwhelmed, but go threw enough challenge to feel it is an honorable enough sacrifice. Though I don't feel it is a real sacrifice, it is me finally allowing and listening to the Lord's direction for my life. Giving in to the self discipline I have been needing.

The most questionable decision would be the tattoo, and I understand that. Due to the conflicting belief whether tattoos are against biblical law or not. The verse that that brings up this issue is Leviticus 19:28 "Ye shall not make any cuttings in your flesh for the dead, nor print any marks upon you: I am the Lord."
There is no way I can counter that, it is what it is. I couldn't justify myself if I were in front of the Lord, I'd be guilty. There is no misunderstanding those words, plain as day "no marks upon you".
But it is because it is permanent, that I want it to signify how critical I do not want to back out of this.

Enough of being unsatisfied and unhappy with myself. I want to be proud, confident and humbly amazed by who the Lord made me. Nothing great comes without effort, and my effort in life is long over due.

Self Loathing

I am not one with a full understanding of how to express oneself through words.

My sentences are bland and paragraphs are emotionless.

If I were to try and tell you, I miss, love and care for you. I would sound like nothing other than a robot reciting an odd 70’s poem.

Perhaps it is my heart, not only through words but in person. My heart is fearful and hides behind every expression and gesture I can muster up to make it so my true colors aren’t seen.

It is foolish, hiding who I am. This only proves I have guilt or distrust for all my equals of the human race.

I am accepting that we are all human, and for whatever actions and thoughts are behind each individuals way of life. I have no doubt I can come to understand and accept them.

Such a hypocritical thought, acceptance towards all others, yet believing I am unacceptable.

It seems to me I am full of ridiculous contradictions. I long to be understood, yet my actions to becoming understood are nonexistent. This is due to my belief that I am unworthy of self expression towards others.

Am I foolish or simply self loathing? Maybe a bit of both.

Thoughts Forever Continue

What can I say?

Is there even a reason to voice my thoughts?
Anyone there to listen? What purpose would there be if someone were to hear?
Anything to figure out and understand? Why? To do "good" or "bad"?

What's the point of this? Words, feelings, thoughts and opinions.
All they are is something one believes. There is actually no truth. No right or wrong.

You are told something is wrong by someone elses belief, off of which they received from someone elses reasoning. Automatically making what they say is wrong or right; is. Of course depending on their status and how well they can persade you with confident words to back up their objection and opinion.

So really, the rules we follow; are all made up. And we simply follow along for the reason of being accepted and approved by others. What we see as bad or good is simply based off what we told is. And of course we would think the same of those we want to be liked by.

My Answer

You ask me why, and what it is I love of you. I answer I love you, youself who you are, and what you are. Your very exsitents.

If that is not enough, I will go deeper into the exact description of what you are to show you why I love you.
You are your own person, with your own thoughts and beliefs. I adore your sweetness, soft and sensitive heart. Your mind to worry and fret over that in which no one else takes any notice of.

Your very will to not become like those that have done you wrong, and showed you that you can be better, and acheive more.
You opened my eyes to the fact that love can be so much more than all the other emotions. That your life can strive and grow in love as your base and core of your thoughts, actions and beliefs.

I love even more that you're mine, and I am yours. I feel safe knowing you'll always care, and be there when I need you. You'll do all you can to make me happy, keep me and make it so we're both smiling.

I want you to see that you are importent, you are loved and you are one of a kind. Someone I don't want to lose, and want to make happy and be happy with for as long as we want the best for each other. I pray and am determinded to see that we go on happy and together for as long as I'm breathing.

Happenings

We've become so spineless, using all the networks of the internet to exspress what we feel, our true emotions. What hurts us, what we think of others and who we are in and out.
Instead of saying these things to the people nearest to us, unabling us to get that true connection with others.

Why have we become so afraid to speak the truth with a straight face? Do we fear hurting others? Getting rejected? That doesn't make sense to me, if someone were to honestly open up to me no matter what the subject. What they thought of me, things they fear, and what situation brings up which emotion. I would listen and understand, because I am human too.

I'd want someone to listen to me, without judgement. Intending to be there for me, help me sort out my feelings. As well as someone to hear my opinions and every random thought that comes to mind.

I desire to find someone to become close with, feel confindent in saying I know them. Is that not the same for everyone else? You can't say you know someone from a few encounters, or a typical conversation of daily matters. To this day, I cannot say I truely know anyone. Nor have anyone that knows me.

I have yet to break the barrier, the fear of the unknown. It has become foreign for us to speak of ourselve, our inner thoughts. It's looked upon as being vulnerable.
I don't know how this view begun, but now, it is truely something a strong and confident person is capable of.
Some day, I hope to succeed in becoming someone that no matter how uncomfortable it might be, to seriously say everything I want and think. No more hidding my heart, hurt, displeasure and voice. I will become someone I can be proud of, and someone that others truely know.

Inner Child

Living day to day has gotten exhausting. Though my recent unhealthy sleeping habit could prove to be the problem.

Again, I'm at a wall. Like always, taking my dear time making even one small movement to getting somewhere.

I've been hating. Holding hatred and resentment for everyones actions surrounding me.
The pointlessness of all these interactions of people in my life, that do nothing but complicate things.

I over burden myself of how others will feel, and react to each and every word, action and way I express myself.

I want everyone to be happy, or at least never have it be my fault for doing or causing one to harbor negitive feelings.

But you know what, sometimes I feel like yelling, sreaming and cussing out everyone and anyone that hurts me and causes me frustration. So for once, I can feel relieved, and not always being the one looking out for everyone keeping so much of myself under so many layers.
Can't someone else take care of me, and let me freak out and just let go of my pain? Allow me to cry, get upset and act like a child. A child I haven't been for so long.

Someone that I can trust won't start beating me down inside and out because they don't want to hear it, don't know how to handle it and don't even bother to try.

I'm so tired of being the strong one. The one in silence just there to listen. I'm breaking, over so much time I have been kept queit. Pushed into the corner silently waiting for someone to ask, are you okay? Honestly and whole heartedly accepting all and any respone that could come from me.

I just want someone to listen, and want to listen. Purely trying to help and care for me. Why, why does if feel I don't have anyone for me that is capable or willing to doing this for me?

Sometimes it helps to feel sorry for yourself, heh. Enough so, that your tears and pain will start to spill. And there is nothing more uplifting than after pouring out your emotions that have been conceild for a period of time.

I can do this. Even one my own, I'm alive and well. And emotions can go ahead and shove it.

Reassurance

How am I supposed to say this. Explain my confusion and doubts.

I'm not going to put my everything into something if I am not %110 sure it's beneficiol from all angles and sides.

I don't have the experience to make this decision rashly, or in anyway have the additude of "just do it" and see what'll come from it.

I am not one to make mistakes freely and on a whim.
I do not play the games of feelings and desires.

Playing by a game board, that is done and made by those who want a one way path, for something to do when they're bored. Travels and experience only varrying to each individual by how many spaces one goes each round. Only for the game to end with them no farther than where they first began in their actual life.

I do not want to go by a flimbsy, wavering board of paper.
I need real, truthful and serious ways about a motion such as putting my everything, emotion and time wise into one person.

This isn't even something I feel a need for, so I have no motivation to put myself into a moment or situation of feelings for desires, bliss and unsenseable words and promises to another person of attraction.

I have goals, beliefs and opinions of how I will live and go about my life. And I haven't spared room for dragging someone along with me for the ride and whatever extra things I may get from it.

I find it unnecessary, or at least not an absolute necessity for my life to go about it's travels.

I have lived my life day by day perfectly alive and well without one to throw myself into arms of cuddles, selfsatifying words of encouragament and pointless actions of affection.

I had no need, and have no need for something I can, and may forever live without.

I do not say this despite you, or that I have no interest at all. Infact I am and do have an interest, that is why I am showing concern. Are you serious, will you promise me your all, to never just drop me like a day old emotion that only lingers for but a moment?

For my first time considering to even think about putting my all into one person.
You should be putting just as much thought into this as I am.
I guess that should be the answer. If I am sweating about all this on my own, without you braking a sweat of extra thought. You're simply not willing, or ready to put the time into what it takes for me to feel confident and comfortable in the idea of all that I am resting in your hands.

This is hard, and I actually had hope. But I will not be investing all my hopes, future and desires upon you. I will hold out for who knows, when you're actually able to take the time, effort and thought it takes to keep and please me (lol). But I do not see that happening, if one is not right for me now when we have first met, they will not be right for me later on. That is simply what I believe.

But this goes both ways, if you are not good for me, I am not good for you. It is in both of our interest to not get started before anything has even begun.

Begotten Memories

Do they ever leave you?

The feelings, thoughts of the ones who once hurt you? Who's done you wrong, abandon and cast your presence away as meaningless enough to never speak a word to you again with no notice of reason?

And to say things so hurtful about you to "friends" you thought were close; that'd stand up for you, never leave your side over anothers statement. Or at least come to you with the lies to comfirm true or false. No matter their connection to the one at the beginning of the telephone.

Why and how. That's all I've wanted to know. I've tried, sent the whys and how comes. But in return I got worse then nothing. Is it too late? Will I forget? Can I go on, unfazed with time? So far it has proven that I am still tender to the thoughts of those times, I get a mix of pain, hurt and regret.

You were my friends. My best friends. We laughed, hung out and had jokes.
Does this mean those times meant more to me then to you? Why?
Because I only had you guys? And you had others, so my friendship wasn't a real loss compaired to what you'd benefit from others? If so, I can move on. I wouldn't need a friendship with you who solely based importence of relationships upon benefits from others.
But I don't know if that's the actual reason!

Assuming that just isn't enough. It may make it easier to move on. But that isn't what I want. I want to be able to look back at all my encounters with people and know the beginning, middle and end. But I have yet to understand my ending with the joy I experienced within those younger more naive and ignorent days with you.

Am I pittiful? Does this mean I have to much time on my hands; to keep reminiscing about past days?

I was such a shy, weak and naive girl. And remembering the things I had with you, my "friends", and having my emotions still be so effected. Has me realize I still am; that spineless girl.

Butterflies of Romance

I've had short hair for a few reasons, and today in this blog I will explain those reasons.
One is because I don't want to be seen as a "potential candidate" for the opposite sex. It's unbelievable how lust driven men are these days, and all the young women that come close to the image of "attractive" they are burdened with the men that have no self respect.

At least for me that isn't something I find desirable. Most women feel flattered by having any man show interest, and I do admit it isn't bad every now and again. BUT it isn't always so simple, especially when it comes to the less intelligent males in this day and age. They just don't know when to back off, and understand that I am not interested in todays twisted goings in "relationships".
I do not want to "hook-up", "fool around" or anything of the sort! And nowadays that's all relationships consist of!

So as of now, I'd perfer to look like a boy til I'm within the age zone to get to know men with actual mature and respectable intentions.
I do not want to get into a relationship if it only has emotions, nerves and attraction on it's side. Is it so wrong to ask for more, though I do not know exactly more of what it is I'm looking for?

But there are still many problems, that no matter what rules I hold to myself; people never get their heads out of the idea that someone always has to like another, or are always looking for someone to like. Which brings me to the problem of being accused of "flirting".
Even if you act happy, laugh and be who you are around the opposite gender that can be perceived as "flirting". Oh and nothing gets me more upset than being accused of "flirting".
But back to the point. Even having one person interested in you is quite a predicament on its own. And I've had my fair share of dealings, when one person was/is after what to them seemed to be but an easy task of just one-two-three. Like/be attracted/interested in someone, get closer to that someone (for however an amount of time) and "go-out" with that someone. Though it may vary in detail, and I do not mean to say most all are "shallow" in there way about "relationships" neither does everyone do it by this method.

But I go about things in a way not many, well none others that I have seen do things in the "relationship" world.

Bluntly, I am not interested nor ready for what relationship I am looking for and want. And oh man I do have high standerds. That's just me, one person in the whole world, filled of billions of others. What does it matter to anyone what I am interested in, choose to believe or how I go about things?


Getting back on track once again here. Though I have high standerds (that will not be lowered or pushed aside) I am fine with it if I never end up finding what I have my faith and hopes set on. I'm living now, which I can and will continue living with or without a significant other involved in my life.

Yes. I will get lonely, I will have those times where I will be in the "mood" to fall and be in love and I will want, desire and wonder. But that can go for anything, not just the butterflies of romance.

Baka

I'm in one of those 'must type now!' states.
I feel like I'm doing somthing of importence, or just making use of my time while typing, reporting, or simply get out some thoughts I know are there waiting to get let out.

The energy/process it takes to think of something to type about. Such as; opinions, beliefs, and all of the above.

Reaching out trying to find something for yourself to feel you've found something that you're supposed to be doing, like a meaning of your life.
A purpose.

Days like these are never easy for me. The restlessness gets even more unbareable.
My impatience gets even harder to handle, and my frusteration begins to boil. I can't stay still and do nothing without feeling I'll blow, and begin scream out of so much frustration.

There's no where to go, nothing I can think of that will satisfy me, and keep me entertained.

All this is simply foolish, you'd think if I were really this bored anything and everything I could find would be accpetable to try. But that isn't it!
It's more like I am so unbareably bored that nothing is enough. I need more, I need something huge to take away this... thought of empty and pointlessness of my life, to be completely rid of.

I need something that'll use all I am capable of. Something that requires movement/effort/stamina, social and conversational skills and real thought. Something that'll build my experience in what I'll need in my life, not for pointless fun and entertainment that'll end up to nothing when it's all done and over.

I do not want to live a fool's life. Only enjoying the things that have no after meaning, and build up to no future nor useful experience for yourself. That is only filled with desire to want material things that only give pointless and hollow emotions/feelings.

I want more than what the world has to offer. No foolish and idiotic "boytoy" or any type of relationship will suffice.

Does no one want more than what you can find in this world?? Is everyone fine and comfortable with electronics, fashion, emotions, items of the world that you find no desire to build and find more for your life??! This is what I believe and I'm sorry and I do not mean it in a hate kind of way, but if you are happy and satified with these things that everyone says is "awesome" and "popular", all the things that you find such a desire in to make a habbit that begins to be something you depend on to feel happy, to feel your life is worth living...

You are a fool.

All the Whys

Wish I could say something, do something. Something with meaning, purpose, wisdom and courage. That encourages and strengthens someone to do something, to take action. To take a step, make a change. A revolution in their life, in my own.

Am I really just a little girl full of talk, yet nothing else outstanding. That this time I have will simply go on, unstopping. Whether the time that is spent is meaningful or pointless?

How am I supposed to make the most of everything I have and am. When time is limited, and so much is still unknown to me?

I don't know what it is I will be most prosperous in. What I am capable of.
Doesn't that take a lifetime of experiences to really come to grasp what exactly that is; for every individual life?

I want to know. I want more, from myself, from others. From life itself.
All that I have come to know so far isn't enough, I'm not satified. This is not all there is for me.

What is it I am missing? Why do I need so much more? Why is this emptiness so hard to fill, and why must it be that much harder to understand?

The Present

It has been a long day. Not only for myself; I'm sure.
I wish, I pray, and I continue to look on to better days. With no attention to spare for the past.

My memorie is bad. Or so I thought. It could be the fact that I so often have my mind elsewhere and do not pay any mind to what's going on around me. That I simply have nothing to recall but the life I live in my head.

I hope to be content, to enjoy and flourish in every day, hour and minute I am alive. And look the present straight in the face as I walk the path of day to day life.

So I use my time accordingly. And stop always trying to run ahead; ignorent to the time it takes to blossom and achieve whats needed. Like understanding, wisdom, expeirence and patience.

Life is time, time in which we part in multiple pieces to make manageable. When in one whole glump of time; it becomes over whelming. Unorganized and sloppy. Unknowing which to be your main focus first, what should be done in what order and how long each action will take. It builds up, and soon you begin to believe you won't be able to achieve all your necessary goals in life.

That is why you stick with focusing on what you have right in front of you. Lot less likely to get side tracked or stuck in an unnecessary situation.

I have no idea why I felt the need to state this whole explanation. But it's just how I roll; I must always make things long and drawn out. Common ground in my life.

Study Before You Teach

What you believe doesn't make you who you are. It's how you choose to live and the choices you make.

But what belief has to do with that; is supposebly what you believe has influence over the choices you make. Is that true for you? Are you stepping into action for what you say you believe? Or are you simply using a title, and living anyway YOU feel. Opposed to everything your statements and words lead on.

Don't bash your "belief". It may not be hurting you any, but for the people that truely put their all into what they say they stand for. It means more than you understand. If you're going to speak up and say you believe in something, you better be sure you have the knowledge to back it up.

Let's stand up, and really start learning what it means to believe, or stand by a certain cause we think is right. You get no where being wishy-washy.

Let's grow up, get wisdom, understanding and patience. Before we go opening our mouths to something we don't even know the half of.

It's common sense. Simple steps like; one two three.

You always study; before you teach/preach.