Butterflies of Romance

I've had short hair for a few reasons, and today in this blog I will explain those reasons.
One is because I don't want to be seen as a "potential candidate" for the opposite sex. It's unbelievable how lust driven men are these days, and all the young women that come close to the image of "attractive" they are burdened with the men that have no self respect.

At least for me that isn't something I find desirable. Most women feel flattered by having any man show interest, and I do admit it isn't bad every now and again. BUT it isn't always so simple, especially when it comes to the less intelligent males in this day and age. They just don't know when to back off, and understand that I am not interested in todays twisted goings in "relationships".
I do not want to "hook-up", "fool around" or anything of the sort! And nowadays that's all relationships consist of!

So as of now, I'd perfer to look like a boy til I'm within the age zone to get to know men with actual mature and respectable intentions.
I do not want to get into a relationship if it only has emotions, nerves and attraction on it's side. Is it so wrong to ask for more, though I do not know exactly more of what it is I'm looking for?

But there are still many problems, that no matter what rules I hold to myself; people never get their heads out of the idea that someone always has to like another, or are always looking for someone to like. Which brings me to the problem of being accused of "flirting".
Even if you act happy, laugh and be who you are around the opposite gender that can be perceived as "flirting". Oh and nothing gets me more upset than being accused of "flirting".
But back to the point. Even having one person interested in you is quite a predicament on its own. And I've had my fair share of dealings, when one person was/is after what to them seemed to be but an easy task of just one-two-three. Like/be attracted/interested in someone, get closer to that someone (for however an amount of time) and "go-out" with that someone. Though it may vary in detail, and I do not mean to say most all are "shallow" in there way about "relationships" neither does everyone do it by this method.

But I go about things in a way not many, well none others that I have seen do things in the "relationship" world.

Bluntly, I am not interested nor ready for what relationship I am looking for and want. And oh man I do have high standerds. That's just me, one person in the whole world, filled of billions of others. What does it matter to anyone what I am interested in, choose to believe or how I go about things?


Getting back on track once again here. Though I have high standerds (that will not be lowered or pushed aside) I am fine with it if I never end up finding what I have my faith and hopes set on. I'm living now, which I can and will continue living with or without a significant other involved in my life.

Yes. I will get lonely, I will have those times where I will be in the "mood" to fall and be in love and I will want, desire and wonder. But that can go for anything, not just the butterflies of romance.