Dedicaton

I no longer want to live like others, just to feel my ways are justified and acceptable to the eyes of others.
I want to choose a path that'd come to surprise myself.

Let me help you understand what I have in mind.
For three years I want to purify my life and body. No alcohol, no cigarettes, no drugs of any kind, "natural" or not. Eat and drink to the best of my ability, as well as train my body to become strong and flexible. And most of all no sexual actions or contact with anyone or anything. I want to dedicate myself to the Lord, live a life of righteousness. Basically going into a form of nunnery.

I want to see something different in this world, and I can't simply sit back and wait for someone else to do it. If no one else, why not myself to take such a step in an unpredictable direction?

I want to see this threw, so on New Years day that's when it will commence. To make sure I stick to this path, I will get a tattoo of a black inch thick line around my arm to show the beginning of the first year, with every successful year that passes; a new line will come with it. With the last tattoo on the opposite arm as the other two.

If you are questioning why three years, why the tattoos or why to everything about this idea in general. I will answer with this; God, faith, prayer, the love and words of the Bible has been the only significant thing in my life. The only thing I know I will want to keep forever and base my life off of.
Three years because I feel that is the perfect amount of time to not be overwhelmed, but go threw enough challenge to feel it is an honorable enough sacrifice. Though I don't feel it is a real sacrifice, it is me finally allowing and listening to the Lord's direction for my life. Giving in to the self discipline I have been needing.

The most questionable decision would be the tattoo, and I understand that. Due to the conflicting belief whether tattoos are against biblical law or not. The verse that that brings up this issue is Leviticus 19:28 "Ye shall not make any cuttings in your flesh for the dead, nor print any marks upon you: I am the Lord."
There is no way I can counter that, it is what it is. I couldn't justify myself if I were in front of the Lord, I'd be guilty. There is no misunderstanding those words, plain as day "no marks upon you".
But it is because it is permanent, that I want it to signify how critical I do not want to back out of this.

Enough of being unsatisfied and unhappy with myself. I want to be proud, confident and humbly amazed by who the Lord made me. Nothing great comes without effort, and my effort in life is long over due.