Attitude

Lol, now normally I would never put a "lol" in one of my blogs, but this truly calls for one.

My last couple of post are full of attitude~
Which I think is quite hilarious, because to me, attitude feels a bit off from my typical self. I think the only one I do it to most; would be my mom (like most). Even when I do, I regret it not too long after.

I'm simply not the type to give a bad attitude to others on a daily bases or often enough to feel comfortable doing it. Don't think I'm saying I'm an angel and never get in a bad mood and act out towards others.
I admit. On occasions, I have given attitude to those close to me; like family members and loved ones to the point where it was uncalled for. I am indeed human.

Though when it comes to those I don't really know, and they happen cause me stress, frustration. Acting towards me with crude, mean actions, throwing whatever hurtful words my way; I'd probably (and have) start(ed) crying before I'd ever stick up for myself to say anything back, or give "attitude".

I'm not too sure why, it should be instinct to defend yourself when you feel endangered by another. But maybe that's the answer right there. Perhaps it is percisely because I do not feel endangered by others words of objection, bashing and disapproval. So I do not act, I stay silent and let them say what they please. Go ahead, hurt my feelings, it will not kill me. It'll only make me stronger.

It is better that the idiots that cannot control their emotions well enough to know they shouldn't act out and say such hurtful things to others, to lash out on me rather than others. Others that are unstable themselves. We'd make absolutely no progress, if we were to try and hurt the person that is trying to hurt us, it'll simply create an unending cycle with no resolve.

Don't get me wrong, just because I will not stand up for myself (in most cases) that doesn't mean I do not know how to. Nor does it mean I won't, if I'm pushed too far or if it's on behalf of someone else that is getting bullied by another, you can bet your life on the fact that I will stand up, take a stand for what needs to stop and who needs defending.

I have yet to experience a serious enough situation to flex and exercise my defencive and fighting capabilities, but maybe that's a good thing. Whichever it is, I am capable and I'll make sure of that.