Attitude

Lol, now normally I would never put a "lol" in one of my blogs, but this truly calls for one.

My last couple of post are full of attitude~
Which I think is quite hilarious, because to me, attitude feels a bit off from my typical self. I think the only one I do it to most; would be my mom (like most). Even when I do, I regret it not too long after.

I'm simply not the type to give a bad attitude to others on a daily bases or often enough to feel comfortable doing it. Don't think I'm saying I'm an angel and never get in a bad mood and act out towards others.
I admit. On occasions, I have given attitude to those close to me; like family members and loved ones to the point where it was uncalled for. I am indeed human.

Though when it comes to those I don't really know, and they happen cause me stress, frustration. Acting towards me with crude, mean actions, throwing whatever hurtful words my way; I'd probably (and have) start(ed) crying before I'd ever stick up for myself to say anything back, or give "attitude".

I'm not too sure why, it should be instinct to defend yourself when you feel endangered by another. But maybe that's the answer right there. Perhaps it is percisely because I do not feel endangered by others words of objection, bashing and disapproval. So I do not act, I stay silent and let them say what they please. Go ahead, hurt my feelings, it will not kill me. It'll only make me stronger.

It is better that the idiots that cannot control their emotions well enough to know they shouldn't act out and say such hurtful things to others, to lash out on me rather than others. Others that are unstable themselves. We'd make absolutely no progress, if we were to try and hurt the person that is trying to hurt us, it'll simply create an unending cycle with no resolve.

Don't get me wrong, just because I will not stand up for myself (in most cases) that doesn't mean I do not know how to. Nor does it mean I won't, if I'm pushed too far or if it's on behalf of someone else that is getting bullied by another, you can bet your life on the fact that I will stand up, take a stand for what needs to stop and who needs defending.

I have yet to experience a serious enough situation to flex and exercise my defencive and fighting capabilities, but maybe that's a good thing. Whichever it is, I am capable and I'll make sure of that.

Life View

What does it mean to be alive? What is the actually definition, is it simply having the capability to breathe? You cannot tell me that is all. There's more, so much more.
 

I don't need to prove there's more to us than just having fuctioning bodies. It's such a strong feeling in all of us, that there has to be something more to living than just being here. Life is far from pointless.

Seeing how others treat themselves, and others. Believing themselves to be of no worth or value. Constantly putting themselves down, thinking they don't have the knowledge, skills, and whatever else they believe is needed to be considered "worth something".

It's sad, it is. Because each and everyone of us is different, has something to provide this life, this world with something new and inspiring.

Believing you can't do or be something causes you to act as such, in which you only become and act exactly as a worthless life. You treat yourself and life in general according on how you see it.
Please change your way of thinking if you are living this life as anything other than what it is, and life is a blessing.

Do You Live in the Truth? Or the Lie?

Nights are usually when I have all the time in the world to think endlessly for as long as I can stay up. Which is why this night I am feeling the need to write, write as much as I can to at least try and organize my thoughts, and feelings.

Though they don't normally end up making a lot sense, since they are my deep thoughts and feelings that have been so deeply covered, that when brought to the surface it's tough to distinguish what exactly I'm facing being the first time seeing them in the light.

Words are hard to come by to explain, these emotions and thoughts are foreign and nothing I've come across so far.
Soon they'll be acknowledged by myself, and known as a part of me. BUT if they are deemed unworthy and not who I want to make apart of me. They are cast out with time, effort and taken away by God. He takes away the dark, negitive, unclean and sinful thoughts and emotions that I can no longer push down and coupe with.

I want peace, love, forgiveness, understanding, wisdom, grace, mercy, a long life, happiness, joy, confidence, etc. Anything of the opposite, I want nothing of it.
Oh I know it's there, I know it's going to try it's hardest to become me. To make me believe it's apart of me and there's no getting ride of it.

But I will not let the lies of the enemy break me. Satan's darkness has no power in my life, for I am the Lord's. God has made me to do great things, to have a life of joy, happiness, a long and prosprous life. I have accepted the truth and not the lie.