Start Your Engines

You never know how messed up everything is, until you're in the middle of it, and impacted by all the people that are going through it.
Now I was beginning to think it was pointless to be in school, and I really had no good reason to be there. But just recently, I started to get a lot closer to people. And have been being opened up to, and I think I can do something. I know I can do something, because I have the answer. And til now have been to lazy and unmotivated to do anything anything with it because I didn't see any real need, or push. But now I'm surround by people that are suffering everday, that just want to live, be happy, to stop hurting, and find something worth living for.
And I wouldn't be able to call myself a human being if I continued on without being moved in the slightest by all these people, these kids that are going through far to much than what they can handle.
I want to do something, I need to get up and do SOMETHING. I've been begging for something to get me going, something that I felt I want to do, and now I have it. And I should wake up already and realize I'm not always going to FEEL like doing anything, if it's right or not. And just do it, plan it, play it out, and see the affect to the first thing you ever stood through to the end already!
So no matter what, I am starting my life, and get this party started. It's life, my life.
So it's time for me to get my Bible, note books, cds, and everything I can grasp. And start doing something right! And not just for myself, and what I want, but to actually live bigger. Bigger than myself. And there isn't anything more I could ever ask for.
I am so ready for this.