You never know how messed up everything is, until you're in the middle of it, and impacted by all the people that are going through it.
Now I was beginning to think it was pointless to be in school, and I really had no good reason to be there. But just recently, I started to get a lot closer to people. And have been being opened up to, and I think I can do something. I know I can do something, because I have the answer. And til now have been to lazy and unmotivated to do anything anything with it because I didn't see any real need, or push. But now I'm surround by people that are suffering everday, that just want to live, be happy, to stop hurting, and find something worth living for.
And I wouldn't be able to call myself a human being if I continued on without being moved in the slightest by all these people, these kids that are going through far to much than what they can handle.
I want to do something, I need to get up and do SOMETHING. I've been begging for something to get me going, something that I felt I want to do, and now I have it. And I should wake up already and realize I'm not always going to FEEL like doing anything, if it's right or not. And just do it, plan it, play it out, and see the affect to the first thing you ever stood through to the end already!
So no matter what, I am starting my life, and get this party started. It's life, my life.
So it's time for me to get my Bible, note books, cds, and everything I can grasp. And start doing something right! And not just for myself, and what I want, but to actually live bigger. Bigger than myself. And there isn't anything more I could ever ask for.
I am so ready for this.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Friday, October 15, 2010
Buwha
So.
It had occered to me why I've been feeling as if my writing have become shriveled and dull. It may very well concern on my outlook, in how I was sharing my views and train of thought.
Looking back, studying my prior "blogs" I feel as though I'm being too narrow minded to seeing and acknowledging, not everyone thinks like myself.
So in return, how is anyone but myself supposed to understand what I'm trying to get across?
Conclusion; begin seeing my own writing through others point of view.
That should help improve this dilemma.
Getting off track here, I'm going to go on about something completely unrelated to the subject above.
I'll start with this; the last week or so I've been surrounded by a much larger number of people then what I am used to. Why I feel the need to write about this? Because it's causing me to feel quite suffocated, and of course writing is a great outlet to releasing frustration.
Main reason I am finding hard to coupe with all these extra bodies hanging around is because of all the problems and faults that come along with them. Now I'm not going naming all the problems (as well as my own).
Though I will say that my overall stress has mainly come from the whole deal of the stupid, shallow, fake, immature, and simply mindlessness of feelings people have toward each other. It's so twisted, peoples minds are twisted.
I know talking about it is only causing more stress and aggravation. But at the moment this is the only method I know to coupe. Sorting out my thoughts and coming to a conclusion by the end of my rants.
What do you turn to when the solution to a problem doesn't remain within your own mind? Most go to trusted friends or family for advise. But all in all, eveyone's just as imperfect and lost in life as you. So there is no absolute that we will find that solution from another, no matter the amount of respect we have for that person.
Now since I know and accept that I am not perfect, know I can not do it on my own, that I do not have the answers, and that no one else is better off. I know the right choice when I see it, and I'm not gonna let pride, doubt, or anything else get in the way of doin' it the right way.
I will come to the Lord with my burdens, always.
Bwuha, I am pooped. I am much too tired to be typing this stuff. You know I always got stuff to say even when there isn't a need to say it, but even humans have their limits and I'm not even close to reachin' mine.
Enough, for now I'm calling it quits. So peace, and try not to get you panties too tied up over such little ordeals in life. ;)
It had occered to me why I've been feeling as if my writing have become shriveled and dull. It may very well concern on my outlook, in how I was sharing my views and train of thought.
Looking back, studying my prior "blogs" I feel as though I'm being too narrow minded to seeing and acknowledging, not everyone thinks like myself.
So in return, how is anyone but myself supposed to understand what I'm trying to get across?
Conclusion; begin seeing my own writing through others point of view.
That should help improve this dilemma.
Getting off track here, I'm going to go on about something completely unrelated to the subject above.
I'll start with this; the last week or so I've been surrounded by a much larger number of people then what I am used to. Why I feel the need to write about this? Because it's causing me to feel quite suffocated, and of course writing is a great outlet to releasing frustration.
Main reason I am finding hard to coupe with all these extra bodies hanging around is because of all the problems and faults that come along with them. Now I'm not going naming all the problems (as well as my own).
Though I will say that my overall stress has mainly come from the whole deal of the stupid, shallow, fake, immature, and simply mindlessness of feelings people have toward each other. It's so twisted, peoples minds are twisted.
I know talking about it is only causing more stress and aggravation. But at the moment this is the only method I know to coupe. Sorting out my thoughts and coming to a conclusion by the end of my rants.
What do you turn to when the solution to a problem doesn't remain within your own mind? Most go to trusted friends or family for advise. But all in all, eveyone's just as imperfect and lost in life as you. So there is no absolute that we will find that solution from another, no matter the amount of respect we have for that person.
Now since I know and accept that I am not perfect, know I can not do it on my own, that I do not have the answers, and that no one else is better off. I know the right choice when I see it, and I'm not gonna let pride, doubt, or anything else get in the way of doin' it the right way.
I will come to the Lord with my burdens, always.
Bwuha, I am pooped. I am much too tired to be typing this stuff. You know I always got stuff to say even when there isn't a need to say it, but even humans have their limits and I'm not even close to reachin' mine.
Enough, for now I'm calling it quits. So peace, and try not to get you panties too tied up over such little ordeals in life. ;)
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