All In All.

It's funny how the littlest parts in me, my personality are the ones I can't stand the most, and they always prove to be the hardest things to kick.

I've changed a lot, but I guess there are some things that will always stick to you like glue (sometimes worse than just glue).

I don't want to become someone entirely different, that's not what I aim for. I try to change to become better, to get rid of the things in me that hold me back from being/doing the things I want to accomplish.
And there are plenty of things in which we make apart of ourselves that we hold on to, like emotions, thoughts, and beliefs that effect how we think, the choices we make, and how we act that we simply do not need, and only effect us and lead us to doing what's wrong, and blur our vision to seeing what is actually right, and what is the truth and what's the lie.

And I. I choose to live higher than myself, I want what's right, I want truth, not pleasure, items, or empty happiness that only last for a certain amount of time. I want happiness that will last on its own, without me having to try and make it, but know it'll just come and last on its own.

Change can be good, and in the same way it can be bad. It all depends on who and what you are changing for, and what methods you're taking to change.

Hate to Hate

I hate to hate, to even admit I "hate" something, someone, something. But sometimes it is so hard not to say the words "I hate...".
I truely, and untterly dislike... something, I can't put my figure on what exactly it is, but something, something is gnaing at me. Just burning me through the inside.

There are just so, so many things that are messed up, yet, we all think we know what that is, and choose to decide it is simply something you need to get used to.
For one, I doubt any of us know anything, of how bad everything really is, the man behind the curten. We take way to many things for granted.

We think to little, and think to much. It all depends on what you are thinking about, one may be pointless, another meaningful. But what will lead us in the right direction? Who, if no one knows?
All I have to say is think, think deep. Not what's on the surfus. How can you know what's the surface, and what exactly is it that is hidden? That's something for us all to think about.

I mess up, a lot. But I won't let that stop me from what I want, nor is any person able to either.
I wish way, way to much. It's about time I pray, and make it come true.