My Testimony

On May 30th I gave my testimony in Sunday service, in front of many people. I had it written down, but I didn't memorize it, so I missed a few points I was meaning to make.

All in all... it was ok, and I pray that the Lord was and is able to use it in some way. Everyone said they really liked it. but to me... it was far from being finished, I feel it wasn't yet qualified to be called a 'testimony'.
Because I have yet to finish or even come close in coming to live the life God has made for me, or even to say I live for him. I have many, many goals to be done, and changes to be made in me.

There is still so much I have yet to experience to be able to give a testimony. Though, I don't regret speaking that Sonday morning, because I realized. I want to do it again, I want to speak about God, and be ready, practice, get better at it. To push me to learn so much more about him, who he is, what he wants, how he feels, and what he has said.

I hope I will have another chance, so I can feel I am getting closer to him, and become ready.

Wants. Needs.

I want to live for him.
I want to be able to say he's "My God"
I want to feel/know, his love, power, strength, and mercy.
I want to live that life.
I want to learn/know wisdom, truth, understanding, love, and all of his righteousness.
I want to be happy.
I want to know him.
I don't want to cry.
I don't want to feel hopeless, and helpless.
I don't want to feel dead, and wait to rot away.
I want Jesus.
I want the Lord.
I want God.
I want Him.